Before I turned 30 last year I had decided that it would be a new year, a new decade to embrace the woman I have become. I wouldn't be like so many women who go into denial, depression about "aging". Oh no, I was going to love myself from the top of my head to the soles of my feet and put the many, many lessons I'd learned in my 20s to good use. I'd had two kids in my 20s and was ready to "Do Me" in regards to my writing - I even started my very own editing business!
Here I sit on July 1, 2009 about three months shy of my 31st birthday. Over the past month or so I have been battling all-things teeny bopper. I have fought off pimple after pimple that has emerged onto my newly oily 30 year old skin. I've had dry skin all of my life, suddenly I have to wash it a few times a day to avoid the inevitable oil slick. I'm not 16, heck when I was 16 I didn't have to deal with acne the way I have at 30...THIRTY!!
My face is oily, my hair is dry. I went natural about 20 months ago and I have my moments, like most women, when I love my hair and those when I just want to whack it all off. I've been in the whacking mood lately. If a girl's hair isn't right how in the world can she feel fabulous? And don't get me started (again) on my PIMPLES!
Needless to say I have been feeling ugly...and OLD. I can't seem to get that glow back in my face and my dull hair PLUS the streak and strands of gray settled right smack dab in the front of my hair all seem to contribute to the 'ugly at 30' rut I'm in. So what does a girl do?
I'm not sure how to shake myself loose of my many, many issues - who knew 30 would be complicated in this way?! But if I have to enlist a dermatologist and get monthly facials, I'll do it. And I'm more than willing to color my own hair, now that I have been doing since 16! I just pray that my 30s will bring about all the high hopes I'd had for the decade: confidence, wisdom, fun, and finally feeling beautiful in my own skin. That's hard to do when you can connect the dots on my face!
Maybe 31 will be my year?
1 comment:
I SO feel you! Oh, the joys. I AM one of those women, dreading 30. I think I'll be staying 29 for a WHILE. But you do always look cute. I love your natural hair. It always looks cute and FUN. If I could just love my OWN! Did you ever get to pulling? :) I am glad I can't see THOSE yet.
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